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I was still lying in my bed, feeling dizzy when I saw your video tag.
Seriously I have to admit, I was completely touched, emotionally unstable.
Then, I felt the strong urge to do something about it and not to let nature take its course anymore.
There are few things I need to make it clear to you:
Firstly, I understand very much that it was too petty and insensitive for me to angry with yang for so long.
I know it is my fault but, definitely not like what you think, "摆布人们情绪的作风"
I have never ever thought of doing so at all.
And I thought having chatted with him all night long at Fruit Paradise on Saturday night was rather obvious that I was not really angry with him?
I have also never, like what you think, enjoy toying my friends' emotions.
The one and only one was my boyfriend.
You scolded me when I told you that years back, but I didn't do it on any particular friend.
But after getting scoldings from you that time, I have not done any again.
You can check with my boyfriend if you doubt me.
Doing this on boyfriends is like a girl purposely make the boyfriend jealous.
The same reason, not right but understandable.
Secondly, that day during the photo shoot, you were envious of the Caucasian model and said words that showed low level of self-esteem, I consoled you in a positive way but you took it as I was being sarcastic.
Then I immediately said if that was what you thought then I had nothing left to comment.
During our dinner with yang, I complained again to him, you heard and was laughing too, remember?
If you do, then why still said :"等到现在才一副委屈地在博客上面说啊"
I thought I did it immediately, for twice somemore, not wait till now!?
Thirdly, You said I :"做错事还哭哭啼啼，搞得被害人好像变成罪人一样。"
If you understand me enough, you should know that I can't control my tears, not because I wanted to let everyone think that I am pitiful or whatever.
I remembered once I called you cry rivers of tears just because Pudding bite me.
I told you that time, I just cannot control my tears.
I really thought that he knew what was going on then!
And all along I was not really angry with him, I was however, only after reading his blog entry.
The above are the few things I really can't bring myself to comprehend in your situation as I really don't know how much you know about this incident.
However whatever it is, I admit that it all started with my childishness to be angry with yang.
I have apologized to yang for many times already because I really didn't expect it to turn out like that.
It is also my fault forgetting to update you with our progress when you were really concerning for us.
I am sorry about this, it was simply my fault, really.
I have neglected your feeling in this issue.
Yesterday I met two groups of girls because they really concern about me when they saw my tweets and blog entry.
They are my friends, siding me is inevitable.
Then they said things about you, I felt unfair to you, and told them how well you treated me usually.
I know, I am not really angry with you, its just more of I don't like people to accuse me for things not of my intention, especially from you, because you are of unestimated worth to me.
And also, first time encountering this type of problem, I don't know how to handle it.
I am scared.
When I saw your video just now, and I was so touched at that moment that whatever I am angry or sad with were all gone at once!
My memory flashed back to the days when we shared our secrets and had fun together!
How wonderful are those days those times those invaluable friendship!
I have neglected my studies for almost a week due to this, so just don't bring it up again ok?
I hope everything will be better.
"我希望我還是你的司機當你迷失方向
還是你的醫生當愛讓你中傷
不介意變成烏鴉阻擋你太衝動危險地飛翔
更可以一直是白痴陪著你講夢話繼續限制你心魔被解放
但是，我可以不當你的嫁妝嗎？
因為我還要嫁。
我只想當你最寶貝的好朋友，forever!"