Saturday, August 18, 2012
Judge-Him-Not
8/18/2012 03:44:00 AM
I skipped
school this morning as I couldn’t wake up. Far too tired, and that was the
signal for my bad cramp afterwards. I woke up at 9.30am to continue with my
story book. Then at around 11plus, Elton’s mum came to my house to pass us gift
for the baby girl. Then I went to the toilet and realized that’s the time of
the month, though from days ago, hpy already kept reminding me that it’s around
time. So I was prepared and went to bed after washing up. Then suddenly the
cramp came and my legs went numb. Slowly I dozed off till the phone rang. It
was a call from my boyfriend. He told me that he packed me food and wanted to
drive me to school. I told him it is okay, I can cook maggie for myself. Then
after 30mins, he appeared with 3 packets of food and 2 boxes of strawberries.
He asked me to eat the chicken porridge and dumplings then duck rice for bro.
However, when I opened the porridge, it is chicken and century egg. I told
myself to bear with porridge, bear with century eggs, for his effort. But I
felt sorry as I could bring myself to eat the porridge but really not with
century eggs. Then he showed disappointment, he apologized and said he didn’t
know there were century eggs inside. I have no appetite to eat so thought I
should blog.
Actually I
wanted to blog since yesterday night after talking to hpy regarding some
issues. I realized my boyfriend is such a nice guy, the best in the world whom
I can’t seem to find any replacement thus far. I know perhaps I am bias, but
even my whole family and friends who don’t know him in person also said that I
must be stupid, must be out of my mind to break up with him. I remember there
was once my hpy did something serious and had hurt me, when told my bf, he was
so mad that he said he will scratch his car if he sees it. Then I jokingly
asked hpy to be careful though immediately after that, boyfriend said that he
was kidding and no matter how much he hates someone he also won’t do that kind
of childish thing. Knowing him for six year, I know better than anyone else
that he was joking. I was rather sad that someone actually criticized him and
thought that he was childish or stupid to be like that. He thinks that boyf is
a bad boyfriend, however he himself doesn’t even have what my boyf has. I was
totally disappointed in him, and regretted much in telling him that.
After
yesterday, I felt the guilt for boyfriend again. Just now when he knew that I
am sick today he packed food for me immediately and wanted to send me to school
but I rejected. Whenever he knows I have tuition at night he will send me there
and wait for me for hours under the block. He knows that I am close to many
guys so he always allows me to go out with them though he didn’t really like
it. I think I was not a good girlfriend in the past, I am cruel to have created
irreversible misery in him now.
I just dozed
off for hours due to my intense cramp, glad that hpy is so understanding (:
Going to meet him now. Shall continue after dinner (:
Just had
tzichar dinner with DC-2, and played a while at NP Timezone, now back to
continue with this post.
Well, as I was
saying, I am someone who won’t go and talk bad about my boyfriend or hpy,
especially to someone I barely know. To me, my boyf and hpy are the two most
important men in my life now, apart from my family. So I won’t go around
telling friends who don’t know him something bad about him. People do judge. I
want to protect my best friends and boyf, thus I will only tell them about the
good things my boyf does to me, and if there’s a need to complaint, I will
usually confide in my sis or someone who knows him and won’t judge him base on
the only one story I mention. This is the way a true friend/girlfriend should
do. Isn’t it? Boyf is such a rare guy whom appears in my life and will never
leave again. No matter what the future awaits us, I will still be there for him
if he needs me. I am willing to make any sacrifice for him should there be a
need, course, he worth it. If you don’t know him, please, Judge-Him-Not!