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I am struggling hard.
I truly regretted going Shanghai for Industrial Attachment first half of the year, if I would have stayed in Singapore instead, many things wouldn't have happened and I won’t be this miserable now. Or perhaps if not for the 620 or National day events, I would be less sinful.
Many nights I have spent questioning myself, what have I done wrong or what should I do to make myself less a sinner? No answers were heard. I don’t know who can I seek help from or what is the best remedy for all. As days passed, these problems become more and more complicated for the older me to handle. I must have become more stupid. As shadows fall and block my eyes, I am lost and know that I must hide.
I know that I have wasted someone’s life somehow; I don’t deserve that person’s love and care anymore. I have also started something so wrong in the first place. I have changed; to someone I can’t even recognize myself. I know I will falter I know I will cry. But I hope one day I can wake up from this nightmare, forget about it and walk through my once-colourful-life with a sexy curve on my lips again.
For now, I wish to varnish into the thin air.